Life written

1 year on...

2011-10-06T00:45:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the super big hiatus, let my blog sleep for 1 year plus.

22/10/10

O level is starting, im very nervous... Its as if im being judged upon by the world... Scary...

But nevertheless, I will overcome it(=

After o level, I play n play, find a job as a temporary waiter mainly working in resort world sentosa.

31/12/10

1st time to work as waiter, which is in dire shortage due to the large amount of convention held before new year. Did nt spend time with my family, instead I spent time to chat with friends while working, n also a bit of eating too

ard feb 2011

JC curriculum starts ard this time, n im still wondering why im in JC in the first place, cos im merely 2 marks away from my desired course in poly? Yet im reluctant to be going for selection to be the exclusive few initial failures to enter the course. But studying in JC is tough, yet time passes quickly, as promos are over for me now.

6/10/11, 1.10am

As im typing my post here, my mind is overwhelming with thoughts. When can I really grow up? Are my classmates really make me feel better, or worse? Can I pass my promos? Can I shake off whatever that is undesirable from me, n keep whatever that is essential for my future?

Can i be more disciplined to be able to focus on the truly impt stuffs...? etc etc

I cant even sleep properly when all these thoughts come to my mind...

Eye bags grow, tired spirit, desire to hack care of all the happenings...

In a dilemma, I become so fickle-minded, I get into trouble without solving any of them...

I cant decide for anything, sitting on the fence is the only thing i noe how to do...

If there is a place i can escape to, it will be the heaven...

Relaxing(=

2010-06-19T20:28:00.003+08:00

Finally, I took out my PS2 again, in an attempt to bring down my stress level...
My all-time favourite PS2 game: Devil may cry 3
Anyway, im forced to play that cos my mama dun wanna return me my PSP...
hahas, btw, anyone wan to go East Coast Park?(=

If my class(4D) is united...

2010-06-18T15:05:00.002+08:00

Tension stirring among the classmates...
its just the usual stuff lurking within the class...
but why doesnt it appear so obviously in the other classes?
But thinking of lack of unity in my class,
i realised whatever classes that I enters, the classes will always show great lack of unity...
1E/2E/3D/4D - All of them made me realised that those who try to move into the society circles can nv really make it...
One mistake, and expected others to classify you as 'tainted' blood
I think the others look at me like im 'stained' with impure blood liddat...
LOL...talked too much abt blood 'stains'
But classrooms r the same as the outside environment
which the environment is the replica of the battlefield
so I cant even expect to see partly unity, no need to talk abt how the class can bond tgt...
After all, my class being united will be of wishful thinking...

Dream of a naive child

2010-06-15T13:03:00.002+08:00

After long time of hiatus, i hav returned to this blog...
For the opening, I just wan to talk abt my hope for this world...
This also means that i dun believe in the end of world in 2012(thats just a crap)
Earth has survived billion of years, and will survive billions of years to come

While Earth survive, things will get nasty:
Millions of children are born, yet millions of people died at the same time...
New invention appeared in this world, only to see old inventions being thrown away...
New nations rise to the top, with old nations being slammed to the bottom...

But these will also represent sth positive:
The replacement brings in new hope for the whole with a whole new different generation
New invention open up new segments of hope and achievements
Different nations' rise to power changes the system of running the world

If all these things are meant to be, why do we need to be sad about them?
We may not be able to change these things, or even realise their existence
But we can work around its borders, by making life's borderless
So no matter what are the obstacles, we will make our dream come true-a better world

Wont be posting here for time being...

2010-05-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

hahas...Its abt time i shldnt look at my past, n this blog really made me tink abt all the past memories...sometimes im just too emo to look at this blog rotting, but i hav to let it go, cos i nid to focus...FOCUS on my O level!!! Everyone, u all must pluck up strength to work hard then get good results... Bye, till then...

Nice badminton, but...

2010-05-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

Wahahas...i almost got kenna thrashed by a sec 1 boy for badminton match, wat a shame...
oh ya, class today was so boring...feel like playing pokemon crystal, but scared my hp kenna spoiled, cos its on the verge of breakdown...I WAN A NEW HP!!!
Haiz...just dun noe why...got a call from my friend ytd saying its a must to take test tomoro...
but nvm, i cannot go badminton, just go test lor...no big deal...
I wont wan to get into trouble wif the sch...
then today i ask my cher, n he allowed me to take on thurs...YES!!!
But in this way, how am i gonna tell them i changed my ming agn?
Third time leh, i still nid my face leh...
but nevertheless, i dared to ask if i can come...T_T
so go lor, nv realise got so many ppl i dun noe...hahas
srry abt my tone today, hav medicine that day...
so play play, energy run out fast when i play 1st time...
but everything is easily adapted for me...everything no problem(=
maybe they all must hav wondered if im the uninvited guest...
but nvm la...my own fault la...but i hav so much fun, i cant bear to leave...really...

My 2007 favourite korean drams(random now...)

2010-05-05T20:08:00.002+08:00

Today i on com, i had the craving to watch these two not-so-old drams...

The first king of four gods(Cna someone cut short the name???)
The main lead so handsome!!!(lol)

Likeable or not aka I hate you, but its fine

(who the hell gave the drams two names, so confusing...)

Just basically tell u all abt these two dramas ba...

1st one abt the prince who is destined to become a king yet had to ended up dying...

got this four loyal guards, also destined...

2nd one abt a retarded guy loving a pretty girl..

lol, hopefully this happens in real world, but haiz...(fake 1 la...)

ONE MORE, ILJIMAE!!!

im waiting impatiently for the next series, the return of iljimae...

cant find any video that has english sub though T_T

ECP wif my fellow ex-cca mates

2010-05-02T23:15:00.003+08:00

Stingrays(=

My foot is so hot!!!

Nice foot at its rest...

Went to East Coast Park today(=

Look at the sky, look down on the sand...

Wow, its been a year i ever touch the outdoor water pool...

So relaxing...=_=zzz

Then play play wif friends, thats always the case after all...

Plus cycle tgt, until i returned my bike n they continued cycling...

Kenna cheated la, but at least i found a more windy spot(=

Winds blew past me, bringing all the sorrow away from me...

then slack at McD, while they had their dinner, then arcade there we went...

YES!!!Thrash them until they took out their amusement passes, thats when i started losing...)=

Looking out the arcade centre, turning dark le...

"Walao, 7.30pm liao le, go home cfm kenna scolded..."

So there we go, back to our nest...0_0

Bright days are indeed enchanting to our mind(=

Test over le(=

2010-04-30T21:26:00.002+08:00

Omg, i like this picture!!! but the video is still much better(=

Was wondering if i shld put that on my msn display picture though...

Haiz, lets just talk abt my Prelim 1 ba...

1)MT:

Appearing to be easy, yet i hav a feeling its not as easy as thought...

But nevertheless, i just did it, no marks given just by thinking...

2)Eng:

Another paper which appeared easy...

For paper 1, I think i just wrote out of point...

Wanting to write on (how someone inspired me to do what i nv had done b4)...

Write until the main character inspired the wrong way, then changed to (confusion)...

I tink i write out of point...

-My eng essay storyline: Confusion

---Main character: I/me/watashi(me in jap)

---Female lead: Sarah (previously i wrote as Celine)

---Female lead's bf: Snow (what usual name...)

Created with watashi dreaming of loving the female, only to be tricked by the female lead T_T

If u wan the full story, wait for my paper to come back...

I scared i failed that part, cos im sure i kinda wrote VERY out of point...

3)Combined Humanities(SS/Hist)

Its obvious i nv finish both paper...T_T

Haiz, must faster finish the sbq nxt time(took 1 hr currently)

But nevertheless, i must move on, for Prelim part 2, the ultimate calculation test(=_=)

Shall I throw my past away as well?

This world is unfair, not fair!!!

2010-04-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

Whatever, today damn unglam...esp when i had to get angry...
My friends kenna had a fight with another person today...
Of cos i joined in, since i tink that person hav to stop kaobeiing...
then the sch gathered to watch the dramatic event...
N I HATE AUDIENCE!!!!
I suddenly flew into rage, which nv happened for quite a long time alr...
Wanna punch him in the face, only to be stopped by ppl...
Aiya, just hope he can understand that hes in the wrong...
But who cares? I nid to continue studying, that person is nothing, really...

With determination, i fly...

2010-04-03T21:04:00.002+08:00

Ok...gonna update again...
Wed:
WTH, why of all times muz there be a ss remedial aft sch?! so i sat there draw draw draw...
nv listen to the lesson though, cos no notes!!! my file was with that @%#$ chers!!!
Thursday:
Thought of going to watch movie aft long day of boring lesson, but in the end, decided to go home instead...Its useless ba...damn tired le...
Friday:
went out with my friends to play arcade games agn? I dun wan liao la...
so went to watch movie(Diary of a Wimpy kid), n its nice(=
a lot of american-style jokes, though i cant fully understand their humour...
n its funny... i dun noe cheese can be used as a curse...wahahaha
Today:
Walao, so much tuition, will nv look forward to today, for god's sake!!!
saw nadd today, after my last tuition(= thats a morale boost for me=D
but nevertheless, i still go to sleep...zzz
as u can see, im on com now...
Muz finish my 4 essays tomoro, even though its impossible 4 me...
Just hope pigs can fly...byes

No prefect life...

2010-03-26T22:02:00.003+08:00

Today i started to reflect alot of wat i did in the last 4 years...
This is what i found out:
-I regreted choosing NPCC as my CCA, but i got a lot of close friends there(=
-Im not 100% sociable, but im lucky to hav close friends by my side...
-I had spent too much time on my unsuccessful attempts to study well...
-I had always let my bro to do watever he wans...
-I spent too much time slacking, too little time exercising n studying...
-I spent too much time on com...
-Im not really interested in everything i do; just try hard to listen n hate doing it...
Whatever, I believed i will change all these...someday
->Yesterday:
Reach home n accidently kicked my toes onto the table...This time its seriously painful, compared to the other times which they all recovered fast...
->Today:
I attended motivational talks fr 8am to 6pm...Basically, cos of my foot sprain, i limped all the while in sch...will be limping 4 the nxt few days...The motivational talks let me realise wat i shld hav done years ago, even though i dun get much motivation from it...)=
Overall, i prefered the long n sleepy lecturing compared to the activities...really...
met a doctor at night, n OUCH!!! so painful, but TCM doctor really does better at these, will be ready n jumping by nxt wk..hopefully, b4 i accidently sprain my toes agn...
->Tomoro:
Will be attending the second part of motivational talks...hope this works...
But i tink its most likely be boring...)=
afterwards i gonna spend my time in msia till sunday nite...n its not for the good things...
OMG, wat abt my hw???
->Sunday:
-----------Something personal----------------

Not looking forward to nxt wk

unless i finished the stack of outstanding hws....

End of Term 1 holidays...

2010-03-21T16:30:00.002+08:00

Ok..this is it...Term 2 starts tomoro...
Just regret i nv study in the march holidays...
n also nv do all the hw in time...most likely will owe a lof of hw...
But nvm, coming sch term, im pumped up to do the impossible...hopefully...
Whether is possible or impossible, i hav to make it, or face a bleak future...
WHATEVER!!!
This is so irritating...school days n holidays
Always get to regret watever things i did...
Theres nothing that i dun regret doing...
Wats life when i cant be proud of wat im doing???
In the past, present n future...

WoW!! Damn nice day(=

2010-03-18T21:47:00.002+08:00

Today i went out with my friends again(=
of cos its really nice, being able to hav fun again...
but to leave my undone hw back at home, it just hurts me...
Play play play, maybe i almost become senseless of all the worries
but its just temporary...)=
After all the arcade games, im still back to square one...
Whatever it is, i tink i nid to solve whatever problem i have now...
(N arcade games r really expensiveT_T, causing me $40++ today...)
But its a memorable experience, cos i had fun with friends, much better than playing at home all alone...

cos this world is interesting becos of the variety of ppl(=

Holidays rocks(=

2010-03-12T20:41:00.002+08:00

YA!!! Finally...
CT1 finally over n its the start of March holidays(=
Finally im free from long n boring lessons...
n time to adjust my biological clock, since it went out of control...
plus to catch up on EVERYTHING, esp when i see my report book i wanna vomit...
L1R4=24
L1R5=30
No more face le...maybe nid to sleep early plus chiong studies!!!
Gonna show my class i can excel someday, then i will hao lian until siao(=
WAHAHAHA...(too show off le...)

LOTS of hw...

2010-03-03T17:45:00.002+08:00

I decided not to do any hw during the exam period
In the end, I got a lot of hw to do now!!!
Abt time to stop slacking, gonna stand up, chiong all hw finish, then start revising full time...
Its abt time i shld leave sth undone, while i nid to conclude sth as quick as possible...
To summarise my results, it SUX!!!
Cant continue at this slow rate, gonna be faster...
Gonna chiong now(:

Nothing is still forever...

We will always get to lose someone important to us at the wrong time...

We will always get to gain the wrong stuff at the crucial time...

That is wat we cant escape from, cos its within us...

Exams over, but more to come...

2010-02-26T22:47:00.003+08:00

Finally my CT1 is over, but i dont feel like jumping for joy...
cos i kept thinking what a failure i am...
I think everything will flung like siao...
N i had alr failed some subs, maybe its time to tink seriously abt time management...
Enough abt lying to myself le, i nid real action which is effective n efficient enough for me to stand out in O level...
Rather than stopping a while to rest, I will continue to rush, n even faster....
I will chiong towards O level, b4 ever deciding to stop n look back...
Since its not the time to look back n reflect on all the memories...
Sooner or ever, i will be trained to focus on my studies, to ignore all unhappiness...
Maybe wat my friend indirectly means is rite:

"We might as well dun nid emotions in this world"

N this can be easily proved on almost everyone, esp me...

We build our confidence from scratch, only to break down later on, then rebuild it again, only to break down again, and so on...

This is really a torturous process, but this is reality, we cant just hide in our imaginary world forever...

-I moved from place to place, going through extreme conditions, only to find a hell-

Exams, CT1, WHAT LIFE!!!

2010-02-20T23:39:00.002+08:00

WOW.. Its in the midway of CT1, all of us must be tired out ba...
Just hope nxt wk passed super quickly, then we will enjoy our SPA^_^
(like SPA is really that fun, cos its another test...)
i was cycling happily today, yet i found the most important thing was not there...
Its the sharing of laughter, cos im by myself...
Hmm, maybe i share my smile with the public(:
The first reply will be, "whos that siao guy smiling so widely over there?" =.="
*sigh* sianzzz, study whole day, yet find no entertainment that worth the hard work...
Just like how i blew out all the air and didnt breathe in any air liddat...
U just hav to blame the same thing again n again-my life
Without being able to change anything abt it...
then the whole cycle continued...
Maybe thats why we can get old, weak then die x_x
But nevertheless, gonna chiong for the CT1, then SPA, then...
It will never be a inwards flow, only outwards flow of energy from my body...
Jiayous everyone, release all the energy for the tests):

2010-02-13T23:14:00.001+08:00

Two days ago, i dont feel like living on, today i feel that i nid to live on...

CT1 approaching, yet i cant help but to endure all the pains...

2010-02-11T22:09:00.003+08:00

All the tests are approaching, n i hav no idea how to settle my own problems...
I havnt really do much to improve my subs...
I havnt really recovered from the failed attempt to confess, n its kept torturing me...
I havnt had a nice sleep this week, n i hope to sleep for eternally...
I havnt been able to think forward...
Im a little tired from building up all the good memories and seeing them being destroyed one by one, only to be replaced by all the 'empty' memories...
Im tired of all the troubles that i received, and cant find a place to release them...
Im super tired of no good rest n hope i can really get what i really wished for all the end...
Im getting bored of my sux life...
Im getting angry of my own weaknesses...
Im getting upset of all the setbacks in life...
Im getting weak from doing all things without purpose and motivations...
I just hope i can be transferred from this world to another world...
I just hope....everything is over by the time i wake up from my sleep tomoro...

'lifeless' bodies, 'hopeless' souls

2010-02-08T23:13:00.003+08:00

I really dont feel like doing anything now...My life really sux...
Is there solutions to our 'hopeless' souls?
Will our souls hear the desired song of life and future?
Will we stand together, to create the desired future?
Will we all live to see our desired future, before we leave this world for the other dimension?
Will we live to see the younger generations praising us for the better future they are given?
Will we be able to look after them from the heaven?
Just some of the questions popped up from the calm dark sky, with the bright moon, shining as if its looking after us...

feeling all confused...

2010-02-01T20:01:00.003+08:00

After such a long time, i decided to write again...dont noe how will it last though...
Today I dont hav the happy mood on my side...
Cant sleep well b4 the day starts...
then i very angry i cant slp well to begin a fresh new week...
in the end i still try to refrain from shouting out loud...
I bear the anger of ppl smacking me 4 fun, n the flooding msg abt all the mushy things...
Of cos i dont like some of those...
but nevertheless, i still hope to reach home as fast as possible, so to finish my work as soon as possible, then to sleep...
so after sch i went home with my friends, only to realise that more r coming...
Oh, i wonder when i will really reach home...
Some weird things just happened at BPP, with me acting cynical...
After some thoughts, i decided to leave the group to go home instead...
no choice, i dont wan to blast my anger at u all, cos u all r too precious to me...

Tired...

2010-01-23T01:42:00.002+08:00

Now im directly posting from the school camp... The time now is 1:50am on sat 24/1/10, yet i still nv sleep yet...This is so tiring, since i only slept 4 hrs ytd...
i tink today i will only sleep 4 2 hrs, then tomoro i surely wan sleep damn lot 1...
Even though i at first chose not to go 4 the camp, cos i wan to use this sat to go tuition plus meet my friends...
but since i nid that cca points a lot, i tink i better go 4 the SSGT camp...
this sux, i cant even think properly in this kind of situation, n now i hav to try to keep myself awake here, this is so painful...Just hope everything can end soon, so i can hav a good rest...

Ohoh0_0

2010-01-21T21:45:00.001+08:00

WA KNS!!! I nv finish my SS hw!!!
plus I got NPCC SSgt camp tomoro!!! how am i going to pack my bag n finish my ss essay in time??? wan die alr la...

Laugh laugh laugh...

2010-01-11T20:43:00.001+08:00

These few days my friends r starting to call me siao alr, thanks to my continuous laughter that i produced everytime im with them...
Last time i ever had that kind of laughter is abt 1 year ago, which normally lasted abt 1 day only, then the nxt day back to own self le...
but now, keep laughing n laughing everyday...
I thought i was going siao le...
maybe im, sinc i may be tinking too much abt a lot of things le...
I wan cry a little out also cannot, so i choose not to shed a bit of tears since then...
I cant even make myself cry now...look a little like a hard-hearted man liddat...
but nvm le, i just let myself laugh since i dont noe how to laugh...
----------Whenever i laugh too much, i feel like crying...------------

New term...

2010-01-06T22:35:00.003+08:00

So a new term finally started...
happy to meet with friends...sad to meet with enermies...
but the teachers changed the most...
1)My MT cher begin to use "The West Spring Way" to make us behave...
2)My new lecturer 4 SS gave us essay after every lecture...
3)My math cher decided to use CCTV to observe us whenever she wants...
4)My phy cher becomes our form cher, which anyhow do non-academic matters...
5)My ex bio cher loves to use the PA system to shoo ppl off parking lots...(the fast n simple way)
Oh i nid to slp le...nights...

OMG...

2010-01-01T16:44:00.002+08:00

AHHHH!!!! I havnt finish my holiday hw...Spent too much time on fun, n going out with my friends...
hahas, i like my holiday cos i hav so much fun...
-Met with my neighbours at last(which some of them dont hav time 4 meet-ups...)
-Met my elders n juniors in anuual party, talked quite a lot(:
-N the best of all, my childhood friends, only managed to find 3 of them...
-Found my old classmates, so happyxD
-Of cos, hav some outings with them, esp with my best friends(:
I hated my holiday cos i still has so many things i havnt do...
-Still halfway through my studies, n a lot more havnt revised yet...):
-alot of holiday hw havnt do...
-My wild imagination costs my sleep...
-My bro kept playing maple; so noisy i only just wan to get out of the house....
Just hope I can hav more fun 4 the holidays....

It sux...

2009-12-25T21:20:00.003+08:00

I hope u all noe wat this place is...

Just to describe where i go today morning:

I hope u all enjoy ur festive season...

I did not enjoy much of it, though i had a party with my buddies until dawn today...

Damn tired sia... slp from 5am to 10am, thx to my father calling me to wake up...

No choice, no matter how late i slp, i must wake up b4 10am...

Today's worst task: To polish my papa's car...

Today's best task: slp the whole afternoon...(maybe going to be a pig soon...)

Waiting...

2009-12-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

Supp everyone(: Im now at my buddy's lan shop, which is always closed on christmas eve 4 christmas party...
But now, im waiting 4 all the buddies cos they havnt come yet...
Meanwhile i kept losing my friends in Dota, WTH...
Then i go fb check check...
also nothing...*sigh*
But i was lucky to meet my old buddies again(:
Got a million topics to chat abt, esp abt the suxing education system n the economic crisis...
Lucky i slept in the afternoon, or not i sure cannot make it till midnight...
But luck is not on our side; this is our last meeting le...
Aft that, we will not meet each other again...T_T
But i just wan to say thx u buddies 4 helping me through my troubled years(:
N hope our wishes will come true...

SS lsn...zzz(1)

2009-12-21T22:03:00.002+08:00

Today i wan to laugh my tooth out man...
My social studies supposedly to teach us SS today did not come...
N his reason: Backache...
Very 'pro' excuse...
Cmon, i hope to laugh more(:
Plus Im happy all of us got released b4 11am...(smile)
can slack outside sch with friends alr(:
The lsn: super boring...
sit there look look stare stare...zzz
Just tink of the time wasted...

My cousin wedding...

2009-12-14T21:56:00.003+08:00

I was thinking of updating my posts ytd night...
but i drank a drop too much, then kenna headache, wat luck...
-yawn-
i went to msia again this time, to attend a wedding
might as well hav a meet-up with my relatives...
1 year has passed...
Most of my cousins had started to work...
Some work as a teachers, while some work in rubber plantations...
But nevertheless, we still r united tgt(:
The wedding was nice, but i hav no idea how to describe though...
Normally i can take in beer without any after-effects(:
But this time diff...
They presented wine, which i thought i can take in just as easy...
instead I felt a long headache after the wedding party...
just my luck...
Warning: Dont drink alcohol when u have good mood, its going to make u down n emo...
Drink alcohol if u cant control ur emotional sadness(not anger though), though i dont advise u to do that...

Pissed!!!

2009-12-04T20:30:00.002+08:00

These few days i was very angry of alot of things...
Fight with bro over alot of things nowadays, esp computer...
Then kenna scolded by my parnts 4 slacking around too much...
Later my friends also turned against me...
My fault 4 being offensive these days...
Im trying hard to stick to the plans that i had made...
In the end I feel like throwing all the books down the building...
feel like beating someone up, or even finish them off...
I just want to sleep, maybe 4 eternal...
Or even burst myself into thin air...
But i noe, its still my fault that i offended u all...
will try to suppress my anger, k?

2012 :):

2009-12-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

Today i go watch 2012, n find it really interesting...
The storyline was very shiok...(:
But i regret going there myself...
cant share any good moments with anyone there...):

Song 4 today

2009-11-28T22:39:00.001+08:00

Song today shall be:

Justice to believe

It took me 30 mins just to find this song...

cos the vocal 4 the other MVs sound weird...

Open house 2009

2009-11-28T21:54:00.002+08:00

My friend only called me ytd that i hav to go sch today...
Of cos, as npcc cadets, they will nv fail to ask me to do road marshal duty...
so I got everything ready by morning n off i go, to sch...
But i tink i shldnt hav come...
I started duty on 1230
Hot day indeed, but i continued to stand there, with my cadets...
Then 1320 the leaders called us to go inside sch to rest...
During the rest, i walked around the sch, esp the library, where i drank chinese tea...
The scent must be very nice, but i cant smell anything due to my blocked nose...
The librarians taught me how to pour n drink tea...
It really brings back memories, when my father also taught me how to serve tea...
So chit chat there until 1420, when we slacked around the sch again...
n finally the leaders told us to pack up...The whole duty ends at 1500...
n i got 4 hrs CIP points, when i only work abt 1 hr(:

Nice one...

2009-11-26T22:15:00.001+08:00

Today's just another boring day):, will try to make tomoro a more interesting day(:

Looking into the future...

2009-11-18T21:10:00.002+08:00

A few days ago, NCO camp had ended
Tomoro, a brand new adventure, to vietnam...
N the days passed very quickly...
I didnt study much, nor did i play as much...
My days r suddenly shortened a lot, seems like i cant do a lot of things...
Whenever i play, i dont enjoy them...
But i like NCO camp; I enjoyed the games(:
But something terribly wrong happened after the camp ended...
I felt seperated from my friends, standing on my own...
They stopped doing their usual things...
I always depend on them, but its abt time to act on my own...
Just like last two years...
Sec 3(2009) has been a bless to me, though i still dont get wat i really wanted...
Nothing is going with my way forever...

but who cares??? Its not like i nv experienced it b4...
The dark age r gone n is back, just face it...
Im either waiting 4 2012 to sweep me to heaven, or just fight on...
I will work hard n live my life til then...
When 21 December 2012 comes, i will let heaven decides my fate...
N i will create my part of the story b4 it ends...

NCO camp!

2009-11-16T21:37:00.003+08:00

Finally the NCO camp has ended... N i missed it a lot...
I will always rmb how we assist them during the camp...
N i enjoyed it, alot...
I love the time that I spent with the sec2 cadets...
N its abt time i stepped down to let the youngsters shine...
Overall, the camp is:
fun, i hope the cadets enjoyed the fun..
Tiring, i still wan to sleep after a 12 hrs sleep...
n photos to tell u all more abt the camp...

Actually its a campfire...

Thanks to the rain, we decided to do an indoor 1...

N its my 1st time...

I hope the sec 2s can pretend this is a real campfire...

the last day: prize presentation...

Outsatnding cadet(1):Jia Jun(: ps this is really dark...

Outstanding cadet(2): Hong Rong(:

No surprise he got it...

Outstanding cadet(3): Agnes aka the angel(:

Joker of the camp: Julian(: wat a nice posexD

The last prize goes to Johnson, but my sux hp auto-restart at that time...srry...

N my hp camera really sux... shld hav bought a digital cam...

N hence, the camp ends well, n most of all, we noe each other more(:

I wan to KILL!!!

2009-11-11T22:12:00.004+08:00

Holidays r killing me!!!
still nid to return to school...
they gave us even more things to do...
Ya... I have chosen this path, so i must bear with it...
No choice rite??? I hope im not regretting my final choice...

So finally I got my PSP back, thanks to the number of days my bro keep fighting my mama to hand back the confiscated items, while im at sch studying...
N when i came back from sch, my mood went sian to see their bleak expressions..

My mood always changes b4 going to sch...
I hate sch, because i dont really like sitting in classroom
Studying just to hav a better future...
I like sch, place where i can learn more things outside...
n with alot of friends(:

i always look forward to meeting the sec2s in my cca...
Its because of them i want to attend cca, or not i wil nv attend cca...
so sec2s, better dont pon cca... n the NCO Camp too

My holiday so cramped i dont noe when to start doing my revision n hw...
maybe after the vietnam trip...
n i hope to get a study group as soon as possible...
i wan to recap on everything!!!

Thanks to sch life, im so busy now...
But without sch life, i might as well die; life wil be so boring...
I no longer want to slack alr, but when do i start?

NCO camp is just two days away... I hope the sec2s will attend the camp, or not i hav no purpose of going there... n i must start packing le...

2009-11-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

Song 4 today:

Step towards the sky in your dreams

Opening song

for the Hong Kong series "on the first beat"

My STC camp...

2009-11-08T19:57:00.002+08:00

Finally i get to capture this pics(: hope u dont mind...

Finally reach home from STC... didnt take much photos cos they confisated my hp during the camp.... Off to Pulau Ubin(:

This 1 is quite blur, esp mr leong...

Beautiful sea...

6/11/09:

gone 4 tresure hunt which we run around the island itself...

at night, played games with my group members(:

I decided not to talk much with my friends then kept talking to the Area 8 cadets...

kenna scolded alot of times cos of our slow speed...

then at night, i didnt sleep a wink...

talked with the sec 2s(westspringean n some random cadets from other sch)

then cher come to chase us back to sleep...

nxt, i come out of my tent again to enjoy the sky, which alot of stars...

7/11/09:

tired cos nv sleep

so morning i nv talk, to conserve energy...

then i do everything slowly...

we all did physical training in the morning, n it was a mess...

I always look forward to afternoon, when i can do the rope challenge...

Kinda scared over there, cos i almost fell over alot of times...

n also injured my hand muscles...

then at campfire(night), im chosen to be one of the songleaders...

I was kenna swapped with kirby... i wan to sit n cheer as a audience...

n i did badly over there, cos i not adapted to Area 8 cheers...

Theirs r different from ours...

I was so tired that night i just close my eyes n sleep...

8/11/09:

Yes!!! finally the last day...

do games to exercise in the morning, then area-cleaning comes...

keep moving around to help others...

took damn long time(since i kept wishing i was at home...)

then walk from the campsite to jetty... so tiring, wish i was on a van...

finally reached sch b4 noon, n i hav lunch with hong rong at bpp KFC(:

All the exhauxted ppl, w8ing to go home...

2009-11-04T21:26:00.001+08:00

OMG... 2 more days to my STC... must start to pack my bags):):

To the fans of Shining Force EXA...

2009-11-03T22:14:00.002+08:00

Song 4 today:

World's love

I hope u will enjoy this,

esp the fans of Shining Force EXA saga

Note: This video has the MV+Shining Force EXA gameplay

Oh... y is chem so difficult???

2009-11-03T16:37:00.002+08:00

On mon, my chem cher, mr seah, decided to give some more chem hw, so i start doing them so that i can learn more...
The first ws is very easy, cos its 4 the weak ones...
but 4 the 2nd ws, i started to wonder around...
WAT THE HELL R ALL THESE???
propanoic acid??? is it related to propane?
methanoic acid??? is it related to methane?
then still got superoxide??? OMG...
though i noe the answers to a few of them, but there r so MUCH things that i dont noe...
n mole concept??? 50% of my calculations r always wrong, even though i use the rite methods...
(or is it somewhere wrong???)
I must crush chem like hell, to show myself that nothing is impossible!!!

but b4 i do that...

maybe i shld hav some fun...

Time to choose my future...

2009-10-27T16:57:00.002+08:00

Today, i was trying to avoid tinking whether to combine or to remain my pure sciences...
kept watching anime, until i finished the whole series...
that's when i found out im just being stupid...
tinking abt it now, or later... they r the same...
im just running away from it...
now im tinking abt it, i wondered if i really can come to a conclusion...
If i continued with my pures, my life in the future will be unsteady, even to the point of dropping down, back to square one...
But the good is, I will be offered with a higher salary, but is this wat i really wan???
If i combined them now, I dont nid to work so hard...
But the bad is, my future can nv be as good as ever... i can see it...
Either ways hav its advantages n disadvantages...
"OK.... so im gambling on my future???"
"ya... Its time to move on, leaving the past n accepting the future..."

"So... Hav u made ur choice?"

made a wrong decision...

2009-10-23T20:51:00.002+08:00

Now im super stressed of wat to do...
even though i may be going 4 the cambodia trip, i feel that im going there halfheartedly...
But i tink im really going there halfheartedly in the future...
on may, mr lee gave me the form 4 the 15 days cambodia trip. that time, i didnt pass it to the parents cos i dont wan my parents to noe...
but i can nv hide it 4 too long when he called up my parents if they were interested to send me 4 the trip...
n u noe wat, im still tinking if i wan to tell them abt it, if i tell them, then im sure i wan to go...
but i didnt tell them, that means i dont wan to go...
but when my parents noe abt it, they keep telling me to go, as i can learn a lot during the trip...
finally, i gave in, aft my father encouraged me to go...(my father nv fail to control my actions...)
then i dont noe why, but i suddenly feel like going...(must like my mind acting weird again)
then i attend the meetings, though i sometimes look perplexed during the times...
then now, i got my results back, n decided that i nid more time to buck up...
so i noe that the trip will take away most of my time...
i nid time, plus the truth is...
Im not very interested in going 4 15 days...
BUT i decided to quit, then the rest wil quit with me, then in the end, the trip will be cancelled...
Now wat u all think i shld do??? pls tag ur advices on the tagboard. Thx...

Recovered(:

2009-10-22T19:16:00.002+08:00

haha, i hope u all noe wat today is(:
but if u dont noe, nvm...
so today, things changed 4 the better, but still far from good...
so finally, i get back to sch...
lessons as usual, but some friends surprised me 0_0
then i got even more surprised that those that i nv tell them, they also noe 0_0
oh, kns, didnt i tell u not to tell the others unless they find it out themselves or i tell them???
cos i nv expect ppl to celebrate 4 me... since my class nv do that...): since i last celebrate abt it in pri 1...
then here comes the assembly, even though its ok, but i tink staying in class may be a better idea, cos its so noisy...
but i laughed a lot, esp when mr suki dance(:
so boring life continues until i meet with my classmates which i burst into laughter, almost to the standard of rofl(real case)...
suddenly i recovered from my sadness... dont noe why, but i feel much better now...
though i believed that they must be surprised by it...

I shld not be living in vain...

KNS(21 oct)

2009-10-22T19:09:00.002+08:00

wth... I was so excited when my friends called me out 4 celebration(: i excited till i hav to control my own excitment... but everything goes 4 a change aft they tell me that they r busy...
n u noe wat, i wasted time by myself at lot 1; going to library then slack around the shopping centre... luckily i saw some of my classmates n CCA friends then kinda tell for a while...
around 5pm, i decided to go home n get ready to cycle with my friends, which they say they nv got time then i hav to cycle myself...wat luck...
so cycle to CCK then to Bukit Gombak then return home... it was torturous, u noe... i hav to bear with it,or not my evening i will be staring at nothingness...

tink i must hav a plan to do things during the holidays...

Happy that exams' over...(thurs)

2009-10-17T13:06:00.002+08:00

After the last day of exam, i was so happy that i can finally come out for some fun(:
1st thing i do is to hav some delicious lunch(:, but in the end, i didnt hav a good lunch...
Cos the exam spoiled my mood alr...

so when i get home later, i decided to go somewhere interesting. Before exam, i discovered a new cycling route n so i decided to try it aft exam(:, and so now, let the pictures describe my day: The end of the pang sua cycling trail, with the MRT tracks in front
The wholesale shops opposite the cycling trail

This looks a bit like a prison to me, with all the nice things outside n the spoiled wire separating the buildings n the 'prison'.

Meet them on my way back home... Oh a lot of sec 2 wsss students here playing basketball, though i nv join in the fun...

The clear blue skies(:

And so i shall conclude here. Thanks for the fun that i had...

im tolerating with my family...

2009-10-10T22:48:00.003+08:00

Kns... today so sian sia...
Today i looked forward to meeting my study group when my friend tell me that today's session is cancelled....
cause my day to be totally off-balanced le...
morning as usual, i go 4 tuition(a-math)
kinda like chit chat there with the sec 4s, very nice to talk to them as they complain abt 'O' level n their parents nagging at them, just like how my parents do to my bro....
Then reach home, i go play my fb acc as well as chit chat with my on9 friends(:
they r always so nice to me, though they sometimes dont reply me...):
all the nice things r gone after that...
To summarise everything, my bro qurrelling three times with parents... then i go sleep to avoid hearing so much noise...
now he still interfere with wat i wan to write sia...

Just another thing...

2009-10-06T23:00:00.002+08:00

MT:
haha, manage to finish all, but i tink i fail my paper 1 alr... cos anyhow do mah...
Eng:
got finish, but whether i pass or not is another thing... my eng so lian i hoped i can write as well as how low kay hwa write his romantic novels...
SS:
spend 55mins on 1st 3 sbq??? then chiong the rest in the end only halfly done...
1d confirm wrong alr): then i think the 2 eassy qns also sux in it...
Finally my phy:
OMG, paper 2 looks easily on the front but then when i work deeper into it, i was... SO DIFFICULT): then my paper 1... I guessed the ans for at most 10 qns, out of the 40 qns in total...

N then will continue my eoy with all the bad comments...):

Finally, back to my favourite pastimes...

2009-10-06T22:43:00.002+08:00

When i started my secondary days, i lost my past, including who im in the past, forgetting all the characteristics of the past...
but now i realised that i lost my past, just like how some ppl forgot their traditions...
But sec 3 has always be a special year for me... im always happy to leave the 2E horrible class...n meet with more ppl in my new class(:
but still, i nv realised my past until i meet my best n also my old friends, thats when i found that i have gained a lot of happy memories...
i took up new hobbies, or some r those that i did b4, exp is cycling...
but i found a special remedy for my empty heart which is rarely filled by my parents: reading romantic novels...
Last time, i always read the whole story, but now i read halfway, then wait a while b4 i read the other half...
When i tink of how the stories ends, my mind went wild in terms of imagination
Now, i feel very excited to finish some more of those novels...

See ya, cos i wan read more b4 i hav my nice dreams(:

So late...

2009-09-27T02:00:00.002+08:00

Hahas, n my first time i havnt slept at this time...
i abt to shut down my com when i decided to write this...
today i only free from 7pm onwards(hw havnt do yet...)
so watch tv n play com until 10pm then start doing my hw...
so work work work to now(0215am...)
OMG... i tink i tomoro may not wake up... but still hav to do a lot of things today so tomoro dont nid do so much...
But aft doing my stuff until so late, i realised still got a lot more to do, so i decided to go to sleep now...Nites(:

JUST CHIONG AR!!!

2009-09-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

Some times back, i was worrying abt whether the sch will finish the syllabus b4 exam, n if i can conclude all revision b4 the exam arrived... I worried so much that even my friends found more white hair on me...OMG, im getting old from worrying too much...
But one day, i suddenly realised when im not tinking much, i can chiong my revision much better than b4... Since then, i told myself that i must not worry too much, so as not to waste time worrying... I told myself that any other problems i will only face them in future, so i was angry when was told that i nid to go CCA... I decided to take the chances to scold the sec1 cadets abt their beahaviour, meanwhile im just releasing my anger... i became short-tempered these days. but luckily i nv show them in front of my friends...So i must chiong my revision, for the sake of passing my exams n eventually getting the distinctions needed(:
Note:Nadira, i hoped u can find some solutions from ur own problems(:

So cool...

2009-09-24T21:53:00.002+08:00

Finally, a cold weather today... i longed for this day when i can sleep well, but in the end, im at sch attending lsn... sometimes, when i looked at chers, i feel like smashing the tables n leave the class... but i bear the pain n eventually 4get it... Today my eyes turn cloudy n i kinda cant see things for a while): but everything recovers(: n why r there so much remedials to attend??? then still got my cca... Im so not looking forward to tomoro...
but i must preserve, no matter wat, to get to my wanted future...

2009-09-21T21:46:00.001+08:00

Btw, im enjoying this final holiday a lot n is ready to rock n roll for the eoy n for the future(:

Burning with strength...

2009-09-20T12:48:00.002+08:00

No matter who or wat we r, we will always having a burning soul within us, just like how the pheonix rises in burning passion...
But for some ppl, we will always be finding sth to fill up our burning passion, as if it is placed somewhere else... meanwhile, we will be walking around, maybe forever, finding the hope that may not exist at all... or we just live as zombies...
But no worries, we live in this to find the things that we looked forward to, n that's what that will fill up my soul... burning passion from our hearts, even though we r burning from nothingness...

Therefore, we must fight on, just like how pheonix burns with passion!!!

2009-09-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

oh...i cant stay on com for long nowadays... n the exams r approaching... i feel so old...

WAT??? why r u all gathering???

2009-09-18T23:23:00.003+08:00

Almost every nites i hav dreams...
but yesterday's dream very special 1...
cos i see the old man again...
this time i was shocked abt the ppl that he bring along...
he brought ppl like zhenghao, wendy, etc
OMG, 1st time the old man who gives advices in my dreams bring ppl
then everyone talk...
wth, morning i still rmb the sentences
then now i 4got alr...
that why i morning got nothing to say, cos i still wondering wat to do abt those words that they said...

CCA again...

2009-09-17T20:31:00.002+08:00

omg, tomoro nid bring uni again???
im going to hate my chers for calling only some of us to bring uni...
then the rest leh, pt-kit...
i tell myself, i wan pon... in the end leh, cos all friends nv pon, so i hav to go lor, physically though
My spirit will float around singapore until the end 0_0
omg, why nid bring uni again??? i hate this cca, but will still work hard until the end...(:
so dont worry, i will try not to pon lor... but if given the large amt of time aft friday's schooling, i can do almost everything... i hav to tink tink tink...*sigh*

wan to die alr...

2009-09-16T21:51:00.004+08:00

With its blade, it will protect the good from bad...

today's really my unlucky day...

-classroom got new 'camera'...

-after sch i called to stay back

-they kept making fun of me...

-my tuition postponed

-go home still nid do all the housework...(who ask my mama go out...)

-my bro nagging to take over com again, of cos more chaotic cos no mama to stop us...

-oh, n the list goes on...

but i still noe that these must happen sooner or later...my damn unlucky day...zzz

song for today:Toki wo Kizamu Uta

2009-09-15T17:26:00.002+08:00

Actual song:
ochite iku suna dokei bakari miteru yosakasama ni sureba hora mata hajimaru yokizanda dake susumu jikan niitsuka boku mo haireru kana
kimi dake ga sugisatta saka no tochuu haatataka na hidamari ga ikutsu mo dekitetaboku hitori ga koko de yasashiiatataka sa wo omoi kaeshiteru
kimi dake wo kimi dake wosuki de ita yokaze de me ga nijindetooku naru yo
itsumademo oboeterunanimo kamo kawattemohitotsu dake hitotsu dakearifureta mono dakedomisete yaru kagayaki ni michita sono hitotsu dakeitsumademo itsumademo mamotte iku
hada samui hi ga tsudzuku mou haru nanonimesamashi dokei yori hayaku okita asasaninbun no asa gohan wo tsukuru kimi gasoko ni tatte iru
kimi dake ga kimi dake gasoba ni inai yokinou made sugu soba de boku wo miteta yo
kimi dake wo kimi dake wosuki de ita yokimi dake to kimi dake toutau uta dayoboku tachi no boku tachi nokizanda toki dayokatahou dake tsudzuku nanteboku ha iyada yo
itsumade mo oboeterukono machi ga kawattemodore dake no kanashimi to deau koto ni nattemomisete yaru honto ha tsuyokatta toki no kotosaa iku yo arukidasu saka no michi wo
Translation in English:
I just stared at the falling sand in the hourglass.If I were to flip it…it’ll start all over again.In this time that just passes through…I wonder if I too can enter it.
In that hill you just passed by during your way home,plenty of sunny spots have appeared.Here, tenderly, I alonereminisce these warm feelings.
Just you…it’s only youwho I loved.My eyes, watery from the wind,makes you more distant…
I’ll always remembereven if everything were to change.Just one, just onemundane thing…but I’ll show you, this one thing full of radiance,I’ll always and forever protect it.
These cold days continue…even though it’s spring already.In the morning I wake up earlier than the alarm clock,you stand there, making breakfastfor three.
Just you…it’s only youwho isn’t next to me.Until yesterday, you were there next to me…looking at me.
Just you…it’s only youwho I loved.For you…just for youI’ll sing this song.It’s our…our ownpassing time.Continuing to be alone…I don’t want that.
I’ll always remember,even if this town were to change.No matter how much sadness I meet,I’ll show you, the time when I was truly strong.Here I go, I walk to that hill.

Note:the song ends here...

The meaning of this song is similar to the storyline of the anime, Clannad...

It's the tunes n the meaning that i liked this song(:

Pictures(:

2009-09-15T17:04:00.004+08:00

Today's nothing to say, so some pics to enlighten my blog:

My favourite pokemon,

Jirachi

No matter how old is this cartoon, i still like this one:)

Kirby The Dango family(Rice balls)

(I tink some heard this old items b4...)

the ads for a new series of Clannad,

Clannad after story

I wondered if there is another series of it...

so it ends here...

One day b4 term 4 starts...

2009-09-13T20:57:00.000+08:00

One wk just passed liddat... n i hav to face the chers again...
The holiday was ok, except with a few irritating days which i hav to return to sch n the stupid hws!!!
the stack of hw... n then got more lessons...
but i found a lot of ans during the holidays...
i found my goals, short term targets n then my past...
at first i not happy with my ans to the past, but by looking at my friends now, i decided to focus on the future, as well as to remember the past well, cos they r my standing blocks, no matter wat the past is...
last time im lost in everything, now i found something that i wan to hav, n that's my purpose(:
even though it may be new to me, but at least it allows me to a path...
Floating around the present world is not enough, we must move on, to the future, to the future self!!!

9 is so shoo!

2009-09-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

Today i decided to invite my bro to watch movie called 9
even though the title a little weird, but i like the show...
the storyline quite nice, but the ending leave me with a lot of ???
n then i come home at 10pm n my mama nv scold me...
then ask papa if can use com until midnight he agreed...
i was shocked, happy but i tink that they r just going to break the promise anyway...
or is it that they decided to change or...(i dont feel like saying this...)

Why i hav to do these???

2009-09-09T21:46:00.001+08:00

Today i really diao mei... even though i go with mama to IMM hav a lot of fun, at home, i just got scolded until i dont tink my soul's in the house alr...
so today i gonna write a lot of the ****ing things i wan to say...
1st, my chao parents. U tink u can buy me by bringing me out n hav fun, as well as offering me repair 4 my phone? wishful tinking, i only wan to be alone, not to be disturbed by u two... even though i hav to thank them 4 helping to repair my phone, but i hav that feeling they r trying to buy my trust back... n DONT FIGHT EVERYDAY, IM TIRED OF IT... i feel like running out of the house, but i continued to bear, cos i nid to be patient, as the saying goes, 'ten years is still enough to hav revenge'.
2nd, HOW MANY TIMES MUST I TELL U TO STOP FIGHTING WITH MAMA OVER COMPUTER??? i can leave u to die, cos i also dont care abt u alr... wat i wan is u to SHUT UP, U BASTARD!!!
3rd, i thank u for this msg:
"Letting go is painful, but not letting go is more painful.
Controlling your anger hurts you, but not controlling your anger hurts others.
Forgiving is forgetting, and forgetting is forgiving."
at least i stop scolding this 4 once... but can u tell me wat i shld do??? i dont dare to hurt the loved ones, nor can i forget or let go of the hatred...T_T
i wan to cry alr... even though i will still be hoping...

So cramped up...

2009-09-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

Omg... these days very busy... everyday still got lsn, then go out till 6pm then go home... Of cos it's not finished, still got hw n revision to do... oh, my mama scolding me to got to sleep le... nites talk abt the fun things tomoro...

Anime: Clannad

2009-09-03T20:34:00.000+08:00

wow!!! i love this show a lot... esp the Dango family n their storyline(:
enough abt the emo thingy, i watch this aft my friend introduced to me a long time ago...):
starting from today i kinda chiong 6 episodes until now...
i love the anime, even though the animation a little old-fashioned...
it's like looking back into the past...(:
haha, nowadays most of the new animes r more for the females, so hav to adapt lor...
dont like to watch anime like bleach, cos they only fight n fight, no fun to keep watching it...
whatever, i tink the anime got only 25 episodes then i move to toradora again(cos i only watch 1 episode of toradora b4 )

Where am I running towards to???

2009-09-03T20:18:00.000+08:00

ok... today just another day... recently got scolded by parents cos my results sux...): then my bro n mama go all quiet... so im using this com now... (wat i do everytime...) then just now, my friend msg me say that tomoro nid to bring npcc uni so can test the sec 1s... i was feeling down at that time, tinking of how to replace my lack of love from my parents(my parents nv talked much to me, sooner i tink i nv talk to my parents...). My bro n mama kept fighting over trivial matters everyday except today... looks like a new chapter is born, a challenge that i nv seen b4... a lot of things happened these days, but nevertheless, i will be standing up high... ok then, i was angry when i received the msg, kinda of tinking to smash that cher... he can call sec 1 nco or HO for this, why choose me when my drills sux... tomoro i wan find them then discuss... actually when i go 4 cca, my soul is always floating outside, trying to find wat i wan... back in sec 1, i joined npcc cos of my friends, not because im interested in it... even if i regreted abt it, i hav to finish the 4 years ordeal... hope to brack the 'contract' as soon as possible...
can someone guide me back to the path???

Happy teachers day...

2009-08-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

morning cant open my eyes...zzz
then come to sch later than thought, lucky not late...
then 1st lsn used up the energy...):
lucky nxt lsn Mr Liu nv come, but cannot see his inspiring sunwalk...
phy lsn i almost sleep le...
then the celebration comes(:
bad thing is: i almost sleep again...
but then when hear yufeng sing i suddenly high... how this happened i dont noe...
aft sch go back to pri sch but no chers left then go bbp with my friends...
wat a nice day...

2009-08-31T21:14:00.000+08:00

After 1 thousand n one thoughts passed through my mind, i suddenly lose my will
now i feel like being afloat on a ocean with no land nearby
now, i always hav to act out my normal self in front of the ppl, while hiding my true self behind...
cos i still wan life to continue n i wan ppl to be happy...
life cannot stop cos of me...so every1, we must work on, till the time comes
can some1 comfort me??? i tink i nid conselling someday...

2009-08-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

WoW... tomoro i wil get back my chem paper... so i w8ing to see if i pass or not. ok then bye

wow!!! gi joe is so interesting!!!

2009-08-25T20:37:00.001+08:00

haha... i was trying to stay awake during hist makeup lesson...zzz
n got our results...wth got B4 only...
that spoiled my mood partially 4 the day...
so l8r go lot 1 though my friends there alr...
then they say they still at sch...
so go NTUC buy sth n then to library to borrow books...
when they came, buy the tickets then go into cinema...
yes!!! the show damn exciting, but i tink transformers still better...
then chit chat until quite late then go home...
my brain is tired now... chao

2009-08-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

omg... wat shld i do? so confusing...

overall tests (CT2)

2009-08-20T21:23:00.001+08:00

OK le, finally exams r over n i can put my hair down... but tomoro still got CCA 0_0
so lets talk abt the papers...
1st, the topic for writing eng paper is not easy...
tried to put in some new words, but remain the normally way 4 writing...
next, chinese proved to be easier than i thought...hahas
then, Amath n Emath proves to be easy as usual, except i leave blanks behind... 1st time to do that...
after that, hist n ss r quite difficult cos i dont like doing it, only like the lessons...hahas
finally, the triple sci r quite a problem to me, especially chem paper today, which is a killer paper...zzz
the other two r difficult, but i can still handle...
from here, i realise that i shldnt be slacking around n must get to study as soon as possible...
no matter how much problems there is, i hav to iron this out 1st...even at the cost of one's emotions...

Totally wear out...

2009-08-18T17:54:00.001+08:00

Yesterday my parents went back to msia so i hav to do all the chores at home...
plus hav to revise n look aft my bro at the same time...
afternoon playing com as usual... lazy me...
then at nite i do all the chores then my bro turn to play lol...
9pm finish all the chores then go to revise- thats so late...
n then sms while studying... all friends asleep by 11pm then only i n my bro still awake
then called my bro to go sleep then he say wan take the chance to play more...wth
so continue studying n then finish hw till 0130...so late still dont feel asleep...
my bro still playing, so i forced him to go to sleep... then i sleep too, at 0230zzz
then 0630 wake up, wth, gonna be late 4 sch... so prepare quickly n then head out...
lucky reached sch earlier than thought...
so today phy test-average, but then sometime forgot formulae n then forgot transfer to another units...
so tired aft recess that i slept through half of chem lesson...zzz omg, my 1st time sleep in class...
for bio test-difficult, nv concentrate much on it yesterday, thats why...hahas
aft sch, go eat at long john with my cca friends...
then i n hongwei go library study a-maths...
that's all... l8r then studyzzz

Very tired...

2009-08-16T13:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went McD with my friends to revise 4 our test... Even though i noe that i study better at home, but im left at home myself...T_T plus i very lasy study myself, n with a lot of things sure not sure... Of cos, just like on fri, we talk more than we study...): but still can ask then noe things better... was there until late afternoon then hongwei wan me to join him in cycling around the neighbourhood... kk, quite nice mah... In the end, cycle to jinghai's house also nothing to do-Ah hai gone swimming... So went Lot 1 to avoid the drizzle...zzz Went to library to rest n then read books too... Huisi n friends also there, then hongwei shy shy... lol, it's not like hongwei like huisi... i tink he scared rumours spreads... so stay there till late evening then cycle home...
nite time, study halfway too exhausted, then watch tv until i realise it's 11.30pm then go to sleep...
ok... tomoro is the start of 5 days continuous CT2):, so hang in there, cos its only 5 days(:

Eng test...

2009-08-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

So today eng test...
1st 5 mins, stare at the paper... ideas flowing all over my brain...
nxt 15 mins, planning... ohoh, 20 mins gone... must faster write...
nxt 35 mins, write lor...
last 5 mins, chiong!!! must finish last 2 para
Yes!!! i just be able to finish when time's up...
must hav contain alot of mistakes...lol
nvm... still got a lot more sub to go, so jiayous!!!
Ganbatte, everyone... (Ganbatte=work hard)

My sch parade...

2009-08-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

Thursday:
Mr Leong come tell me stay back 4 parade practice, that means got only 1 day to practice...zzz
then at class my mind not focused, i swearing in my mind...
swearing that i gonna mesh him to pieces...
of cos i dont hav the heart to do this...(too tired to brother abt it)
so aft sch, practice time... with most of pupils there from my class(:
but then practice kept making mistakes, then cher say my drill nids polishing...
nvm...
nxt, brushing up our drills...
turban guy come insult our drills...
he tink his drills so gd. to me, its the opposite
marching with his oversized tummy, looked ugly...
kinda like laughing at him...):
then his commands very unclear say i dense...
i bear the lecturing... w8, w8, till nxt time...
ok, end of day...
Friday:
zzz...parade day...
i messed up the event...
i tink u all noe why...(if dont noe, ask me)
the tour very nice, except with my stuffy uni...
ok gtg write next time... bye

today's training...zzz

2009-07-31T21:14:00.002+08:00

today's just another typical day, except with cca...
so morning normal lesson + write crap 4 writing...zzz
write abt wat events in sch i remembered most
so write abt the malacca trip, Animal Farm the musical, then dont noe wat i write alr...
everyday's lessons equally boring
except when i sat nxt to my friends, so can talk, but then must study, cos CT2 is near...zzz
then aft sch, YES!!!! BPP, here i come
went there eat long john
but then zhenghao n yufeng abandoned us-decided to go to McD
so eat happily then go back cos of cca...
CCA!!! i suddenly dont what happened
Shouted at the cadets... when yesterday just coughed alot...
look like i failed...
but then i go there to get CCA points + make friends
hack care wat CI, HO, TO talk cork abt...
but then nid bulk up, or not fail sgt test then i=sec 2 ranking liao...zzz
stand n walk till my poor legs cannot accept the pressure...
walao, still got hw to do...zzz
ok then, Ganbatte...

The five law of Humans in ice age...

2009-07-27T20:35:00.001+08:00

1) We hunt to survive, because meat is better than vegetable...
2) We do the 'thing' because then the species can live on
3) We live in caves and tents, cause we need a place to do the 'thing'
4) We are strong yet stupid so that women look at us they feel very safe with us so can do the 'thing'
5) We wear little or no clothes so that we dont need to waste much time to take out clothes so can use more time to do that 'thing'
lol, my friend sent me this, so put up here lor...

2009-07-26T15:07:00.000+08:00

Finally got some of my troubles off... but still tons left... zzz

2009-07-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

Thousand of things r running through my mind now...zzz my head feel like bursting...

wwat thing to do?

2009-07-15T16:52:00.003+08:00

These days i feel quite bored cause most of the activities r cancelled due to the ballooning cases of H1N1... so kinda like stayed at home all day long... so 1st way to spend through the days, do hw then study... who want to do this man... i almost slept doing this(dont tell my parents, cause i sure die from them...) so next, i go out cycling... ya, feel like sleeping, so stop cycling after a few days liao... So i heed advices from my friends, they call me watch anime to spend time lor... at least the new anime quite nice though... just end here today bye

Pictures fotr the 2nd last blog...

2009-07-09T20:04:00.003+08:00

Daichi(Kukai's Guardian character)
Su(Hinamori Amu's Gc)

_______(Ikuto's Gc)<-fill in the blank...

Dia(Dark version)

so that's it, i cant find any other pictures 4 it... I kinda like the show, so like intro to female friends... i believe male friends will say that i gay, but i watch any kind of show 1... lolzzz....

lost...

2009-07-06T17:35:00.003+08:00

This year makes me remember what happened 5 years ago...

when i was in pri 4, i remembered i was very unpopular cause i mixed with the rotten apples
then do bad things till my parents almost cant forgive me...
that was when i felt that i cant make it...
my hearts remained locked in darkness till that girl came...
she guided me along the ways...
pri 5-6:My turn to help...
so this time she got into deep trouble... with my rotten friends!!!
but at that time, i leave my rotten friends to join the fun with my new friends...
ya... i hav to please them to get her out... that's the first time i did that for her...
but then PSLE came n then we got separated... so sad... i wish she can come to the same sch as me...
but then i knew that hope will be on my side... ya... up to now, it looks like that will not happened... its just another dream...

i was no longer happy, whatever i wish cannot come true... even simple dream...

so my dreams r shattered, just liddat...

How is Earth created?

2009-07-05T15:10:00.002+08:00

today the volunteer come again then tell me abt the creation of the Earth... so hows Earth formed?
In science, i starts by a electon n neutron then continue to divide till big enough to form the Earth(if im not wrong..., or i shld say it just happen lidat)
The voluteer say that Earth is formed by God, just like buildings r formed by humans.... cause god r more clever than humans, hence can create more complex structure like Earth...
For me, i believe Earth is created by the combination of chance n black holeeverything that goes in with come out, just like black hole... so i tink it comes out of the other side ba... but why dont it come out of the other black holes? so chance comes in... but then i hav to believe science...):

lalala...

i wish that volunteer will scram...

1st wk of sch...

2009-07-02T22:12:00.005+08:00

hiya... so 1st wk of sch is almost over, so i tink u all will be enjoying being back to ur friends... for me, i nid to finish off my fial task so that i can really enjoy term 3... ya, tomoro no teachers 4 hist class, so i happy; no lessons liao mah... nxt, i going out with Daryl n chun ming to watch movie aft school! oh yes! but then i tink i nid to finish up my final task(not going to tell u abt that...) so that i hav a peace of mind abt everything...): This Sat will be my sch's spring carnival!!! im so 'happy' abt it.... which i hav to bear under the hot sun!!! so nowadays im at home very free then watch some jap anime.... i watch Shugo Chara(also known as My Guardian Characters) now... some say it's for girls, but i dont care... it's not like i nv see b4=_=... the storyline n scene a little like Pretty Cure, but then wat i love most abt the show is the small characters(Guardian Charaters). They r so cute!!! just watch the first 5 episodes, k? i tink u will love it, or not...Ciao!

picture coming l8r...

tomoro...zzz

2009-06-28T21:42:00.003+08:00

tomoro.... another new term, another experience....
school is starting tomoro, so i start counting the no of hw undone...
actually my holiday packed, so less free time...
out of the free time, most of them r 4 playing com
so only little time left, took out some for revision
n so... tiny tiny bit of time left... hw? nv do...lol
only do a bit... maybe 1st wk try chiong finish hw then pass to teachers...
btw, i believe tomoro is a better day, so dont u worry abt it...

i live to see the future

i wondered how it's like?

lalala...zzz

2009-06-19T17:30:00.002+08:00

yesterday sleep another 12 hr still tired... feel like my days r numbered. but nevertheless, there r still a lot..., no! ton of work to do!!! tomoro got two tuition to attend n i havnt even touch on the hw...(mind u, it's hw for 3 wk tuition...) so get to work lor. i nv realised that i can finish all of them b4 lunch, which the hw is 1 compre n 1 eassy. Woooo! i can rush in time to be with my friends in the afternoon, to visit my injured friend, William.
Didnt stay long there...(cause he play with his com too much) so reached home at 2pm theen play com n finally write here.
I tink aft this i go cycling, but where?

Love?

just another sorrowful thing on Earth...

am i rite?

or am i wrong?

Finally back from my trip...

2009-06-17T16:34:00.005+08:00

For the last few days, i decided not to touch my com n went to m'sia to relax

but i lasy to type down my experience there, so pictures will be used instead....

Segamat, M'sia

the brown house is the market

while the blue one is the basketball court...

Wat i always see outside the vehicles in m'sia... boring zzz...

m'sia sure spend alot of $ on wires....

Yong peng, still in m'sia

some middle school students...

they have to go back to school aft 2 wk holiday

but ours is a month holiday... muhahaha...

still remember last year's melaka trip???

our last meal b4 reaching Spore(melaka trip)

So... u still dont remember rite? nvm

So this is all i have to say... still very tired aft 12 hr sleep, see ya...zzz

Yesterday...):

2009-06-12T19:22:00.002+08:00

So yesterday... return home from my CCA; very tired... then slack around thinking of wat to do.
Suddenly, my friends called me at 9pm ask me to meet them at bk 170, so i ask from parents(i shldnt have done that), but surprisingly, my parents, exhausted from scolding my bro, decided to let me off...
Meet my friends there, then go nearby park walk around till 11pm. Too bored to continue walking so decided to slack around the bks.... we talk abt a lot of topics, at least this may be the only time we r together... abt 2am, decided to go Zhenghua Park and play the devils; make a lot of noise and then play childish games(catching, 4 example). so play then 5am decided to leave them alone n go home to sleep, cause quite tired....
Morning i wake up and ans my mother that i reached home at 1am...

lol, i noe i lied...

oh i c why...

2009-06-09T20:48:00.002+08:00

Today i meet my cousin who is a doctor, so i asked him why during the holidays some of us wake up early n he tell my the foloing reasons:
1) When we wake up early for a long time(exp: to go to sch), our biological clock will adapt to the new time and so during the holidays, we will wake up at the set time.
2) pple think of things that they nid to do in the future, so will think of it when they sleep so wake up early cause of stress or distraction.(or in short, it is caused by stress)
There are some more reasons, but i have no more time now, cause nid chiong hw... byees(:

hw, hw, hw

it is nothing but CRAP!!!

My first semester results

2009-06-05T21:46:00.002+08:00

Finally got back my report bk:
English-C6
Chinese-C5
A-maths-A1
E-math-A2
Biology-B3
Chemistry-B3
Physics-A2
CH SS+Hist-C6
*sigh* my results so lan... But I will make sure that this kind of results will nv be shown again...

My 1st shooting competition(NPCC)

2009-06-03T20:17:00.003+08:00

Today, i go for the shooting competition(revolver)... I reach school b4 0800 but then with for 1hr just to take the bus to HTA... Then i ask teacher why and she tell me that in case some pple still sleeping she can still call them and ask them to come in time, wat a lame excuse, but one of us r late... then reach HTA still w8 4 some time b4 we have our turn for the shoot. then, at the shoot, i became too nervous n my mind went blank... then hear someone scolded me a lot of times to put down the revolver... i really dont wan to continue to say abt the scolding... Aft we finish the shoot and of course, the gathering of the results, im the best among the team(but i believe someone in our team is better than me...). I am so excited abt it but then this mean my school NPCC team is going into the finals. Yes! Of course i nid to come back to sch 4 more training... but nvm, the party has just started!!!

2009-05-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

I'm in a mess, just 4 more days to june 'holiday'... I'm hating all this changes, with so much lessons n documents to complete...

wat the... another unlucky day...

2009-05-24T18:31:00.005+08:00

Today i go out cycling again, but this time with a different purposes; to find the answers to my problems... so like thinking while cycling then crash onto the tree!!! OMG!!! my bike spoil a bit T.T luckily i jumped off 1st or not i admit to ICU... then walked across a road nearby almost crashed by a car... then i shouted at him cause he shld have stopped cause of red light ma... then i sit down somewhere looking at the sunset... *sigh* how i wish there is a better place... but then no time so go nearer place look at sunset...

so srry... cant write anymore as i have to repair myfavourite bike... cya

Thinking very hard...

2009-05-21T20:33:00.003+08:00

After seeing my MYE results, i dare not mention my marks to my parents but they sure noe it in the future... of course, my mama scolded me like siao but then i dont care, cause she like scold me everyday 4 my hack care kinda behaviour especially 4 my MYE... Actually, i didnt work hard 4 this test so all my results dropped like from heaven to hell... but wat is done is done, cant be changed... wat i worried most is my future results which is affected by the method of learning i used... This time, i kinda take books like storybooks and read like siao liao then get bad results... so nw im devising a new method, which shld be ready b4 June holiday kicks in... meanwhile, i slacking around, learning spelling 4 tomoro n then brainstorming ideas...

wat the, holiday nid come back 4 so much lesson...

i hated it a lot

partly cause my results dropped like hell...

but then it also filled up my slacking time too

cause when i slack, i always tink of my past memories

which none of it is a gd 1...

gotta my new sitting arrangement...

2009-05-19T21:48:00.004+08:00

finally i dont nid to sit so close to the wall cause it is so hot n humid there i kinda fall asleep most of the time... even though i cant deny that i sleep late at night n wake up early in the morning... aft arranging the seats, we r back to the old seating arrangement! i love it, even though i sit next to charmaine n chun ming... finally i can have some fresh air(most important as it keeps me awake)... how i wish i can sit there 4ever, even though it is impossible cause the nxt CT is near even though its looks far...as time files when we r having fun(: even though its late at night when i am writing this, i still have quite a lot of documents to take care of... so i stop here today cya

i love my new seat...

but there is a thing called desire

as we have more and more things with us

we will still demand for more

that's why its called desire...

n that's wat it makes us human, rite?

tired... but happy(:

2009-05-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

today i wake up like 0830... then my mama told me abt the tuition at 9am... its like wtf! then i call the tuition teacher to postpone the tuition Haha. I can relax 4 the day. OF COURSE NOT...i still got tuition at 1230 so slack a bit then go tuition(eng). At there, i do quite a lot of vocab practice... i tink i nid to practice more liao, cause my vocab like lose to almost everyone in the tuition class lo... kinda disappointed): then come home slack till night then go on MSN talk.
i w8 and w8 and w8 till my friend Ahphia come then talk to her while running through some documents. muilttask for quite a long time. Opps... I nid go watch boys over flowers liao le. Bye Bye...

Ahphia, thanks u for talking to me...

i feel less bored nw...